| Our weekend is going to be spent looking at neighborhoods.
A friend had told me about Eichlers. We hope to see a few today. Modern designs just for my liking. Huge glass walls. But apparently lot of maintenance and other issues with 1950s construction. I like modern small space designs. I don't keep a big place very well. Smaller space with efficient storage is a must.
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Who put in their reservation for Model 3? We did too. So sleek and beautiful! And I hear it is a little more compact. Perfect for daily use. And by then hopefully the infrastructure is better suited for EVs, that we can totally get rid our our SUV. Or just have the SUV around for camping trips. Even now it barely gets any mileage except the 10mi to and fro to BART for DH.
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Our good old friends S and U are visiting from India that called for a get together. I miss that gang. First dotter didn't want to go and by the time it was time to leave she didn't want to leave. She saw her Appa being different and told me' Appa is acting crazy' ;--) The friend had a media room with a wall of projection for movies from laptop. It was a full on theater experience with surround sound. Met folks who had travelled to South America extensively those less travelled countries like Nicaragua and Panama Canal. S is an Ashoka Fellow now which is a distinguished award in sustainability. Incidentally it was his birthday too, April 1st! They are such amazing people. I miss them so much, truly. Always ready to lend a hand, always smiling. Extremely busy but always take the time for friends. Doing some really meaningful work, so dedicated. Met some AID folks after almost 3 years. Most bachelors are married now with kids on the way.
We have become this typical boring couple who don't do anything interesting. ;--(( I had a busy year last year. My excuse.
We had our realtor visit us and I realized we hadn't had visitors in a long time!! I cleaned up a little bit. We are getting engulfed in daily mundaneness. Or the crab is hiding in her shell. It is not like we have lot of friends here. Only a few. Weekends also we have been keeping to ourselves. I am an introvert, for all the interaction at work I need my alone time and space to reenergize. But good friends are fun. Some friends are all about feeding the children and talking about children. That drains me. I say we all need kidless couple friends and bachelor friends just to keep life interesting. ;--)
I was talking to a friend who is an American and has a degree in History which she is very passionate about, but she is struggling to make end meet in Bay Area with the meager salaries non engineers get. It was a slap on my face. This past week I have been kinda cursing why homes are so expensive in some places. It was a jolt to me to listen to her. Bay Area's high prices are naturally driving away generations of folks who have called this place their home. She followed her interests and she is not happy with where it took her. She envies all her indian friends who are engineers. It is sad. Very sad.
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Now let me call the mommy in me to talk about dear JSK. JSK gets mooku mela kovam. And they say it is the genes. And kids do what they see. I need a lesson in patience. I can be the epitome of patience if dotter is all that is in my mind. The moment I get distracted I lose patience. I don't blame her. Things were very beautiful beginning of the year, now we have more work to do with her.
There are days when I just want to cuddle with her, knowing she will grow up in no time. There are days I pick her up from school a little early so we can do something together like going to the library or doing some puzzles or play some games or even a watch a movie this week.
Sometimes I feel I have totally got this mommy thing. I know how to get her to listen without raising my voice, sticking to my stance. Other days I feel like a miserable failure and wonder how she will turn up under my terrible example.
Sometimes I wonder if she is too pampered and spoilt and needs to be held back by the reins and other times I wonder if I need to let her be what she is, a spirited child. There are no right or wrong answers. I just pray to God to help me raise her to be a strong yet compassionate person.
Have a wonderful weekend!
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