| It has been a hard week, might be PMS, but some things are brewing at work too which are not pleasant. I have heard of people being 'let go' or 'asked to retire'.
One junior person takes it hard, I think. I don't know how to talk to him. But I did tell my friend to move his resume fast in her team, and put in a good word about him, that is without his knowledge, he doesn't know that I know. My Japanese crush! (Scroll back to Apr of 2014, J for Japanese) is being let go too. Such a smart guy he is! A vain part of me felt happy he thought of reaching out to me. It is good to be remembered in times of trouble. Another senior person, whom I have always looked up to for career advice, continues to give me career advice and looks out for my best interests. He has plans to write a book and pursue his real passion for coaching and mentoring. But still it is tough. Very tough. He said my real pleasure would be to know I have made a difference in someone's life rather than be known as a big shot who brought billions to a company. Great man! I am a sentimental mess.
This colleague, who was my boss for sometime, now a peer, and I had a long conversation about careers and opportunities. Is it good or bad that we have too many options? I could do A or B or C or D. I am glad I am not pigeon holed into one expertise. But I am like a kid in a candy store not really knowing what I want or what I like or what will not give me a stomach ache.
So yesterday inspite of all that needed to be done, I watched a movie. Athithi starring Nanda and Ananya. Just taking the mind off of the current situation and focussing on the imaginary problem in the movie relieved some of the stress.
But I realized this. Same logic that Sayesha wonderfully put. Who are you to decide whether you 'deserve' to be treated fairly. Life is unfair. There is so much sadness in the world, why not share it with others. I think eventually something good will come out of this for everybody. It is just a phase that needs to be crossed for the good.
So I was talking to my new boss today. Not sure if he is trying to win me or sort of flatter me, but he said I come across as a confident woman unlike many other Indian women he comes across in his site. While for a minute I touched the clouds and came back, I had a slight doubt if he was trying to kajol me. I told him I have worked hard on it for many years. And immediately he wanted to know what I did. And what books I read etc. He mentors women and since I seem to have 'crossed the bridge' he wanted to know how I did it. Wow! A small self involved happy moment. I don't know if I like him or not yet. My previous boss has set a bar too high.
I have started the job search. Every time I try to move out, somehow something convinces me this is a good place to be. Let's see how things pan out this time. Job search always brings bad memories. ;--P of rejection and insult and being ignored. Another bridge to be crossed. As my ex boss says 'there is always light at the end of the tunnel just need to wait for the tunnel to end'
On a lighter note, being in the Bay for so long I have never been to the coveted Googleplex. Will visit tomorrow to meet a friend. Will ask her to take me for a tour.
Happy Friday in advance! If I could drink I would!
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