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| Feeling guilty |
| Tuesday, November 14, 2006 |
 I have a problem, quite silly really. But I am making a big deal out of it because there isnt really any big deal-y thing going on in my life right now. So I have to write about all the other petty insignificant stuff.
Basic rule of thumb while dieting is to not feel guilty when you sometimes do not follow your strict dieting rules. I have been feeling guilty all afternoon. To give a background, I have been having healthy salad for lunch five days a week for the last two months or so, as part of my dieting plan. I have no trouble sticking to my diet during the weekdays. But Saturdays and Sundays, I dont follow my diet as much as other days, thank to dear DH, who sits and eats delicious meals, most times made by me :--P, right in front of my eyes making my mouth water so making me end up eating more than usual, but still, I closely monitor the calories I am binging on. For the past few days, the needle on my scale seems to have stuck at a single point. Last week I consoled myself as I had way too many luncheons and parties to attend, and I was happy I did not put on any weight with all the eating out.
This weekend also included a potluck, for which I made Paayasam, and we volunteered for a post-Diwali Function with yummy, more importantly, free Indian food for volunteers. As I said earlier I deviate from my diet a little whenever DH is in town. This week is when dear dear DH planned to work from home on Friday and Monday, making it a full four days of living together. Oh I wish for it to last forever, only time can tell when that would happen, but I am already deviating from the topic of interest. I deviated from my dieting schedule, came home for lunch and had home food.
So finally today morning I thought I would start my dieting again, as it is almost middle of the month and I have a few more pounds to shed off before the end of the month to reach my goal. But noooooo, it was not to be so. It is a good friend's birthday today. Usually these guys pound on the bday boy/girl's door at 11:30 in the night before the bday and surprise him/her with a cake and a small party. But if everyone knew thats how it is done, it would no longer be a surprise right. So this time, my bad luck, they decided to do lunch with the cake cutting ceremony and all. I say bad luck because I could get out of these bday parties earlier giving the its-too-late-in-the-night-during-a-weekday-so-cant-come excuse. But seriously this time I was wanted to be there because she is a very good, close friend, one of the first friends I made here at work. Also next week is her last week here as she joins another big company in San Diego, joining her husband. I was in a big dilemma, and finally I decided to go.
It was a Vietnamese restaurant. And the food was soooo oily and salty. For my standards that is. Theose were the two things I had decided to take in moderation. I knew the whole plate would easily be just about a 1000 calories, a little less than what I should take in during the course of the whole day. I ate some of it and gave it around for the other non-calorie-conscious-yet-thin-and-fit-because-of-soccer guys to finish it off. Well, one might ask, as to why did I have to order that entry, I could have ordered salad or soup. Let me tell you why. First of, I dont like ones who are too fussy about food, who ask the waitress a hundred and eleven questions before ordering anything. In spite of that, the other day at Chilis, I had to choose between Chicken enchilada soup and broccoli with cheese soup. Somehow I did not hear the cheese in the broccoli and cheese. I ended up wasting a whole bowl of cheese, fishing the tiny insignificant broccoli pieces from the sea of cheese. This time I was late and I had to make a quick choice, and the vietnamese waitress had a hard time understanding what I was asking, so I chose the simplest on the menu, fried rice. Ok, hope that is cleared now.
I came back and I felt so full and sleepy inspite of having eaten less than half the portion. Darn. I ran with more determination and resolve to really burn all the fatty stuff I had for lunch.
Can people not let a girl follow her diet in peace? Why do I have to give in to such social obligations?
I am happy I have friends with whom I can go out and have fun. Touch wood. DH pointed out the other day, there was a time not too long ago, when I used to be locked up at home all alone because I didnt have any friends to go out with, or spend time with, or have dinner/lunch with. I am glad I have them, I do really cherish all my friends.
But still, my diet is getting all screwed up and my weighing scale is stuck to the same point and it is definitely depressing me. What to do, oh, what to do. Next week is Thanksgiving week, and I know for sure I cannot follow my diet, I will be happy if I dont put on any weight. Ok, one need not remind me about the control that I ought to develop. It is difficult enough to control my desires, of eating, that is, when alone, leave alone when I have so many mouths savoring yummy food all around me. God help me from now until end of the month.
PS: The picture has nothing to do with me really. I just found it too darn funny! :--D |
posted by SK @ 8:03 PM  |
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| 3 Comments: |
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LOL at the cartoon pic, actually ROTFL :))
From your post, I somehow come to the conclusion that - you are over-reacting because ur BMI is 0.5 more than it should be!
Correct-aa?
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The sensible comment would be - eat salads or grilled/boiled stuff only even when you go out to eat and before going out for a party, eat healthy food at home so you will feel less inclined to binge on cakes and other goodies.
But the path I would follow in your place is - you are young only once and festival times do not come everyday. So enjoy without guilt :-))! Also, I have noted with me, whether I feel guilty or not, I DO eat. Only thing if I am guilty, I lose the enjoyment a bit. So why not just feel contented and eat happily since the calories are going in anyways?
I am not helping here, am I?
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Prabhu,
LOL! :--) Too much. And btw, I wont take the bait and tell you my weight :--D
Archana,
Haha, I would rather take your path. :--))
The only good thing guilt would do to me is atleast let me run or exercise with more vigor to lose those extra calories.
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Next time I will try my best to not feel guilty :--)
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LOL at the cartoon pic, actually ROTFL :))
From your post, I somehow come to the conclusion that - you are over-reacting because ur BMI is 0.5 more than it should be!
Correct-aa?