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| The good, the bad, and the usual |
| Monday, March 31, 2008 |
The usual.
I am sure I have OCD. We got this new Poker Set. One weekend, we ended up playing a lot with friends, even on Sunday. I usually like to party, have fun Friday and Saturday and have Sunday as a guard band, to get ready for the work week. But last Sunday being Easter and all, we kind of went overboard with the fun part. Played Tennis, Frisbee, BlackJack and Poker, all in one weekend. And all of last work week, spare time in the evening was spent in front of the laptop playing Online Poker. I was reading up strategies for blackjack and Poker. The movie 21 was released at the right time. Liked the movie. It obviously has prompted me to learn more tricks in these games so I can bring down the house too, in our next visit to Vegas. :--D Seriously how cool will it be to win all that money? With simple Math, and some strategy? So anyway my OCD has caused me terribly. Result, terrible eye aches and head aches. By last night, I just wanted to keep my eyes closed. Needless to say my latest dreams have been of Poker, and cards and casinos. My laptop has a firewall, so if I am in my work network, I cant play online Poker. This weekend has been terribly busy, I ended up working for sometime too. Yes yes, I know, you might ask, how come I played so much if I had so much work. Thats me. Work while you work, play while you play. So I usurped DH's laptop. His' didnt have the firewall. So you can imagine. I was sitting on the living room floor, with both laptops in front of me. Working some, playing some, and watching TV too. And playing with DH too. It also one of the reasons why I didnt post last week. I was too distracted. :--) But now I think I am done. My obsession is over. No more poker for me, I am sick of it, I think.
Sometimes I am amazed at how I can feel so many things at the same time. Happy, sad, stressed, and all that. I guess I am learning to compartmentalize my feelings, and act appropriately.
The sad part. It has been three years, since I have been to India, I am almost tempted to leave everything here and go back. When will we ever settle down in life, live together, I have no clue. We have to have an answer ready by this Summer. So many variables. I just feel like a raft in the middle of a rough sea, floating where the currents take me. Uncertainties, choices are killing. Wish I were a kid in these times, someone can just give me one of my cheek and drag me to wherever. Then I will have someone to blame if things go wrong and not my own self. Kidding apart, these choices are difficult to make. All the more when people think you are mature enough to decide on your own. Bleh! Where do I see myself in ten years? Definitely India. I am getting tired of living here already. I may be talking deliriously, missing India and parents a lot. Hate the fact that I have to be on my own during the week.
I think I am too stressed out. Church provided some peace, helped me see the bigger picture. But I broke down last night. I cried in DH's arms like a baby, for some time, for no reason, just like that, to wash out the sad feelings with the tears.
I felt better in the morning. Things cannot go downhill anymore, I had resigned myself to fate. A couple of 'Good job!'s from bosses, and a Kudo from one, helped perk up my mood. I am sucker for appreciation, have I said that before?
On that note moving to the happy part.
I got my very first blog award! Not sure if I truly deserve it. But still it feels good all the same! Laksh gave me the Nice Matters award. Thanks a bunch Laksh! You really made my day!
Here is what the award is for.
“Nice Matters Award is for those bloggers who are nice people; good blog friends and those who inspire good feelings and inspiration. Also for those who are a positive influence on our blogging world.”
I have to give the award to other bloggers, whom I have made friends with in blogdom. I have decided to give the award to people whose blogs I regularly follow, have come to know them personally, reading whose blogs always makes my gloomy day brighter, who I feel are my wellwishers, in a bleak sense. I know I am taking this too far but still..
So the Nice Matters Award from me goes to *drumroll*
Archana - Her blog is like a sunny day after a gloomy winter
Altoid - One good friend I made through blogs and other groups.
Shilpa - Hope you write more often. I sometimes feel I am very much like her.
Ok - Enjoy his ramblings. Always love a peek into someone else's life.
Laksh - Of course I have to give it back to her, enjoy her thoughtful posts, food for thought every morning
I have left Rads out of the list only because she is already a recipient of the award.
Thats not it for last week. Our whole team at work got an award, the biggest award at work. I felt nothing short of elated. I can write a whole post on awards. But this one is special to me for now. And we got our plaques. For the two and half years we toiled on this product. I badly want to share it here, but alas! I have to white-out almost everything on it, cos I cannot share anything from it! But still just for the sake of it, here it is. And as always, its limited edition, I will take it out in a couple of days.
My MIL was all praises for me, inspite of telling her everyone in my team got it. We also get a sponsered cruise to Mexico as part of the award. In the corner of my heart, it does feel good to contribute to bleeding edge technology, and to know that I made a tiny impact, be it 0.0000001%, in people's lives, all over the world.
Oh, I have to add humour as well, just to show how well 'rounded' my life is.
Last week, this newly wedded guy called all of us home for dinner. I live in a small city with a few apartment complexes where most of us live. I set off to pick up a friend and go to this guys place, realized a tad bit too late that neither of us had the address on us. I knew it was 2300 X Rd and apt no, 2301 or 2013 or 2310. Confusing numbers. So we went to this apartment complex and called up another friend to confirm apt no. 2013 it is. We went and rang the door bell. We waited. No one opened the door, to congratulate us on our promptness in time. Did we get the apartment number right? Did the other friend we called up, read it correctly from the email? We waited for a few minutes, went around the sides of the apt, before calling another friend this time to confirm. He also said it was apt no. 2013. I started joking, is this guy playing April Fool on all of us? Called us home, and went off somewhere? We could not help laughing at our situation. And of course we had not bothered to jot down his phone number too, complacent as we were. So slowly, and deliberately it dawned on me, we might have gotten the wrong apartments. Dang! By this time we had somehow gotten the guy's phone number and he started laughing at us, telling us it was this other Apartments he was living in. So anyway, we were a good 20 minutes late to the party, still one of the first few to arrive, thanks to everyone following Indian Standard Time. We had to tell every single person who entered the apartment this story, of how we went and rang the bell of the wrong apartment. I still dont know how we would have reacted, if someone had openned the door.
I am done. Phinish!
PS: Ok, DH says the picture looks very funny, I might as well have not posted it, it has nothing. So pliss readers reserve your funny comments to later moments. :--D |
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| 8 Comments: |
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Congratulations on your award - good show :-D! When we meet next time, pliss to bring award so I can see uncensored version :-)!
And thank you, thank you! You SOOOOOOOO made my day :-D!
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awww...hw sweet...!awardz n all...n nt 1 but 2! congratz gurl :)
gettin the wrng address n drivin arnd searchin is somethin we do alll the time! cuz we leave my dad to gt directionz, n he juz stores it in his 'memory'! ooh mAN! :)
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SK :
Congrats on the work award :).
Good to hear you've been de-addicted :D.
Now, coming to the blog award. You have left a note on April 1st, I am wondering if this isnt some April fool prank?
Kidding, thanks for the award, since I am a novice in all this blog tags, award-shaward thingie, pliss to enlighten this paavam soul on what to do. Do I get bragging rights? What if I dont feel like passing it on to others? Can I be selfish? Pliss to share some gyaan!
Thanks once again.
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Congratulations on your award...now I know what you meant by 'yipee' yday :-))
Thanks you so much for the award...hehehe...I will try to write more often...
I know how awful it can be when you do long distance...all I can say is hang in there...things will be better soon..! Some days are worse than usual...it will pass...cheer up and enjoy life as it comes !
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Thanks:). My very first award, of any kind. In any case, care to explain
"We have to have an answer ready by this Summer."
Is it what I think it is?
And, becareful with the poker bit. I have a cousin who has literally no money know cauze he used to visit Vegas and Reno every weekend.
Hmmm.. The DH must be a sound bloke. I wouldn't know what to do if a girl starts crying. My normal strategy is make a few snide remarks or poor jokes to rub it in and make her cry more;). Sk, without sounding rude, the more I read your blog the more I am convinced I dont want to get married anytime soon.
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Talking about Blackjack and 21 movie, you should try "Mangaatha". MIT's should research on that.
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Archana,
Thanks! Sure sure :--))
Preeti,
Hehehe, talk abt men and directions :--)
Altoid,
You can do whatever you want with it :--) Of course it was not a prank!
Shilpa,
Thankoo!
Yes I am sure, somedays are worse than other days!
And yes do write more often!
Ok,
LOL!! :--D Are you hinting what I am thinking?
Kalyanam pannikka vendama? :--O There are many strong women out there. Dont judge women based on me ;--)
Arun,
Hhaah I dont know how to play that game!
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Congratsss!! On the award! :)
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Congratulations on your award - good show :-D! When we meet next time, pliss to bring award so I can see uncensored version :-)!
And thank you, thank you! You SOOOOOOOO made my day :-D!