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| Thursday, March 04, 2010 |
I have been trying to keep up a good spirit, follow the always be happy rule. But its on weeks like this, that I find it absolutely difficult to follow the rule.
Here are the reasons let me enumerate:
1) Too much work, thats not all, too much pressure, thats not all, too many changes.
2) Running injuries - running was something that has given me the high, helping to tackle tough weeks, but now, tch. Hope next week is better.
3) DH leaving me at 3:30 in the morning to go to LA for the day. Unknowingly I have become so used to us being together, him just not being near me when I woke up was enough to make me depressed.
4) Killing three fishies. We got the second batch of four fishes last weekend, and three of them have died. One after the other, day after day. Its one thing to find them dead in the morning, but it totally different to find them DYING RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOUR EYES and you just stand there helpless, not knowing how to help. Its pathetic!! Only one guy from the second batch has managed to survive.
5) Staying back here for the night in a hotel, not at home with DH :--( Stayed at work here until 7 after a long time, talked to some friends after a long time, went for dinner with another friend, chatted, after a long time, inspite of looming workload. All good. But not at home :--(. More such stays to follow soon.
6) Did I say too much work already?
Now please tell me how can I keep my spirits up?
For now, breathing in, breathing out. One day at a time.
Updated: Actually, not all is so bad, I guess bad overshadows the good. I gave another TM speech too, on a hectic day in the middle of reviews and status meetings. I didnt want to cancel under the pretext of overload. Should I be jobless to prepare speeches? Thats why DH said I am bringing things on myself and suffering. I dont want to back out on commitment. So, with the technical glitches aside, I thought the speech went well for me. I prepared very little, compared to my previous speeches, but still I was able to judge the time left and finish on time, I was able to adjust my speech according to the time left, I was able to crack jokes, without them being carefully planned into the speech like they were 3 4 speeches before. No nervousness, really. I couldnt believe myself. TM does help fight nervousness and give confidence. I am living proof. Long way to go but I do see some results. So yes not all bad. |
posted by SK @ 9:19 PM  |
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Try reading Eat Pray Love , I liked it :)
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you know being vetti like me without any work can get depressing too..infact its better getting depressed due to load. you got something to do. when you have nothing to do and get depressed what would you do? do the dew..free
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"DH leaving me at 3:30 in the morning to go to LA for the day. Unknowingly I have become so used to us being together, him just not being near me when I woke up was enough to make me depressed"
DH had a little sk, little sk...idellam konjam over sk. gen a crib adikara
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Seren,
Will try that one, I am hearing many people reco it.
Soin,
Hahah I agree. Better be busy than vetti. That is more depressing, grass is always greener on the other side. Free :--D
Bodhi,
:--P I am the queen of cribbing, theriyadha, something has cue me to get me started. :--D
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SK: This too shall pass. Hang on.
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Thanks Saumya! ;--) I like your forever upbeat attitude.
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Try reading Eat Pray Love , I liked it :)