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| What the hell am I doing? |
| Sunday, June 20, 2010 |
"Take a look at the sun outside for the last time, you wont be seeing it when you land" the voice of the pilot filled the airplane as I looked out at the bright sky on this sunny day.
Mood - Lousy lousy.
Body - Terribly tired.
After a painful 10miler at the Sawyer Camp Trail on Saturday morning, I couldn't sleep the day off to fight the tiredness and rest those overworked legs. Instead I had to join DH in Fremont to help with the Carrom Tournament that our non profit was holding as a fund raiser. That meant more standing, running around, carrying stuff, dismantling boards and stands. Phew! I did stuff my face with yummy biriyani at the restaurant, but not even that helped my tired body.
Sunday morning saw us once again at the same restaurant to conduct Chess this time. Pains all over my leg decided to show up today. I was yearning for a decent bed where I could lay my head and doze away to forget the pain.
Finally we were able to get away at 3:00. Reached home and slept until 4:45. I had a flight to catch at 6:15. Boo. This is the most careless I have prepared for any trip in my lifetime. It helped that I live close to the airport. I dragged myself around the house to pack the essentials for a day in a backpack. 5:10 , we were out enroute to the airport. 5:20 at the Check in Counter. My shoulders were tired of carrying the heavy back pack, my back started hurting, my legs were anyway hurting. I started re-evaluating my half marathon goal. Is it really worth going through so much pain? When did I grow so old? Accumulating all kinds of pain in the body? How do some other volunteers have so much energy to do so many things, while I get tired at the drop of a hat?
I dragged myself to the gate. Why am I going? What the hell am I doing? Why couldn't I just stay at home? I was going to Portland for an interview. My first time to the Northwest part of US. I haven't been to Seattle, ironically, inspite of DH having worked there for more than 2 years. I am talking about the interview without fear, because I already got another job offer, on Friday, when it was too late to cancel these plans. So to tell the happy news in a dull way - yes, I will be completely relocating to Bay Area by August or so. Yippeeeeeee!! No more flying, travelling, staying overnight away from home. Instead I will be commuting in the heaviest of traffic in Bay Area, but still its better than flying no? We will have to see.
So DH kept telling me to cancel the trip, but I didnt listen to him. Because it is too late to cancel the plans. Because it is fun to attend interviews without the pressure of needing the job. And because I just want to skip work for a day. ;--D
So ya, right now I should be preparing for the interview. Instead I am writing a blog. Portland is beautiful. Very green. Lot of Americans. Felt weird ;--) Cold. Damp. Hence the pilots' comment. I cannot believe the weather is so in June. JUNE! Unbelievable.
I took a van to the hotel. A good 30mins. I don't know when I changed from a timid, fearful girl to a bold woman, who made small talk with the driver, about weather, and nature and of course cost of living. Instead of being afraid of being kidnapped! ;--)
I still remember my disaster interview in Austin. I got lost the night before, still a novice driver, and cried my heart out to DH who was in India, who got me directions from India, no GPS during those olden days, and I had such a lousy experience. I grow and I learn.
So back to Portland. The little I saw of it, I loved it. A river running at the heart of the city, with bridges connecting the two sides, homes on the river, cloudy, lush green. Beautiful. Looked like a hill resort, without the hills. But I am sure it will be lousy in winter. So I tell myself.
So with that I will bid adieu. Wishing you all a wonderful week, wish me back too please! |
posted by SK @ 9:47 PM  |
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| 3 Comments: |
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oh wow, i do need to sync up with u on how to get these switches done.
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All the best for your half marathon.
I wish there was half of a half marathon(a quarter marathon?). Coz thats how much i can run at this point. Hope I can do it this time around.
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Sachita,
From what I am enduring I am no expert. :--(
Lonestar,
Thanks!
If you can do 6-7 mi its just a matter of practice to get to 13! I am not there yet, I have several injuries, but still hanging in there, because I have a commitment.
Good luck to you too!
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oh wow, i do need to sync up with u on how to get these switches done.