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| Deep musings |
| Monday, June 08, 2009 |
Its always like this.
Folks like me at first pass. I am reluctant to get close, but somehow they are super nice to me. And continue to be nice until I let go off my guard. Make myself vulnerable enough, just be myself. Share my deepest thoughts, which are never pretty. They appear to be okay with it. But lo behold! Suddenly things change. They dont want to have the same kind of relationship anymore.
I always used to think it was the person's fault. But this having happened to me more than once, I am beginning to suspect, it is probably me.
I am such that people can like me initially, when I am superficial. But when I show my real self, I am not likeable at all.
So the analysis is, I am not really likeable.
Only DH, likes me no matter what. I tell him my ugliest thoughts (believe me, they are the ugliest), he still likes me and loves me. He really makes me wonder if something is wrong with him :--P. Only his response to me being me is way off the charts. And there are some others, the number in single digits, that I can count on. Who know me more than I do myself. And who like me for what I am. I should be happy to have such people in my life. Appreciate them, and cherish them.
DH always says I go after what I cannot get, and dont cherish what I already have and have got. It hold true with friends too I guess. This needs to change.
After all what is friendship? Accepting a person for what he or she is. Who is a friend? Someone you can be yourself with, without putting on a facade. |
posted by SK @ 6:10 PM  |
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It isn't always you, though that's primarily the knee jerk reaction of all who are raised with humility before pride.
I've been there and it's hurt like it has never hurt. Not when i was a teen or young adult but as a full blown established adult. Hit me square in teh face. It changes you, whether you like it or not.
sorry it was more my thoughts than really a relevant comment. :)
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Is this what you meant when you told me,"if you meet me, you may not like me" or something like that?
Hmm, day by day making all of us curious, SK!
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I bet the problem is usually with the girls you meet.. not the guys. Unfortunately its genetic.
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Rads, :--) I am not hurt, I am just observing. Its ok, you are allowed to post your thoughts here ;--))
Gradwolf,
lol! :--) Curiosity kills the cat you know.
Lonestar,
you hit the nail on the head! So true! Being a girl myself, I am unwilling to accept it :--)
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Cats have nine lives you know :p
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Friends'adu hair'adu. Friends innike pova nalliku varuva. Edekullam feel pannada Yesskay.
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Aww thanks Ram! Most times I do , sometimes than ipdi irukkum. Thank you though! :--)
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It isn't always you, though that's primarily the knee jerk reaction of all who are raised with humility before pride.
I've been there and it's hurt like it has never hurt. Not when i was a teen or young adult but as a full blown established adult. Hit me square in teh face. It changes you, whether you like it or not.
sorry it was more my thoughts than really a relevant comment. :)