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| Wednesday, June 23, 2010 |
One of those rock-bottom days :--(
I wish I could just write everything here, and vent out, but really I cant.
I need to improve the way I interact with people. I am improving but I still have a long way to go. I cannot believe I am not happy or relieved even after getting not one but two offers within the company. And the current group is not letting me go. Small things I said are being magnified and scrutinized. I just dont know how to react. I want to end my stay in my current team in a good note, but its just not happening. I dont know how to handle this. I just dont know.
This is affecting my real tasks that I need to be doing.
I am supposed to be raising some funds by running, and that is also not happening. I talked to some people personally, wrote to them personally, and still people dont want to donate. :--( Makes me wonder if I have real friends. Btw, thanks to all who contributed, you totally rock! I always had the complex that I am not a people person and I can never hold on to good friends. I have changed a lot since college days when I was worse. But still I guess a long way to go.
So many flaws in my character ;--( Stress and disappointment are surfacing as a complex. The girl with huge inferiority complex who hid behind layers and layers of confidence I developed over the recent years is coming out again. God help! Life sucks! Atleast today.
Anyway I hope tomorrow is a better day. |
posted by SK @ 6:55 PM  |
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Hang in there! The sun will shine. :)
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oh no.. i have never heard of the way your current group is behaving, sigh!
and regarding the rest, dont even think along these lines!
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Maybe,your current manager really likes you and wants to keep you. :-). Maybe, you should use this opportunity to get what you want, even if you are forced to stay with the current team.
Transitions are always tough and it is even more tough not to burn any bridges. Do what you feel is right and what helps you.
Tell me about raising funds (rolling eyes!!). I volunteer with a non profit and go through these phases of raising funds and girl, it is not easy. Indians,including me, have saving mentality imbibed into us and are not free with donation. And,so,it is not You with the flaw, it is THEM !! :-)Don't feel shy. Just keep on asking. It is all for a good cause at the end of the day.And, tomorrow is always better.
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Don't be too hard on yourself. some people are like that. Doesn't matter even if you take great pains to make it smooth. From my experience transitions have always been tough.
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Laksh,
Thanks! :--)
Sachita,
Its not so bad, but it is bad. :--(
Shoba,
Hahah it happened once already, and I got what I wanted, but now its time to settle down no, how long can I commute?
Raising funds, yup :--(, I might make enemies out of my friends due to the constant nagging I guess :--D
Lonestar,
Hhmm, that is consoling, but I really want to have a smooth transition :--(
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Yesskay akka. Everybody has flaws. You are such a nice person...
-KD KBodhi
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Aww thank you KDK! I am flattered ;--)
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Hang in there! The sun will shine. :)