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| Thinking aloud |
| Wednesday, October 26, 2011 |
Just dumping my thoughts here.
As I mentioned in my previous post I have been skimming through fashion blogs in my browsing time and was amazed to find a host of posts related to post-partum dressing. And its really great to know I am not ALONE. Getting used to the new self, trying find something that might work from the existing wardrobe, in a dilemma about whether it is good to invest in good clothes and if so mulling over what size to get. If its too small I can use it for long, but I cannot wear it right away, thus it will fall in line with the rest of my useless wardrobe. If its big I will probably and hopefully use it only for the next few months, which is again wasted dough. Its been over 5 months, the whole birth experience has been almost forgotten, except for some random blasts of images I have of little BSK seconds after being born. Only the baby and the weird body remains, but still has it been ONLY 5 months?
I remember a week after having BSK, I hated wearing ANYTHING. Everything looked plain ugly on me, a totally untoned body, flabs all over and now I had no excuse since BSK was out of me. Yes, I knew I had to expect it, but really I wasnt prepared for it. It took a major hit on my self confidence. I hated going out and being seen by other people.
A month later I started walking around the neighbourhood, and doing elliptical at home. I remember huffing and puffing for a 20min workout on Level 1. I was starting from ground Zero. There were times when I thought it was not worth it. Why the hell did I decide to have a baby?
5 months later. Human body is a resilient thing. I can fit into my own clothes, I can hide the tummy if I wear the right kind of clothes. Lot of work is left, but a lot of hardwork has gone into what is there now.
Elaine in Seinfeld said yesterday that every woman has a baby, its not a big deal, I used to think the same way too. Why make a big deal of something that every other person in the world does? But of course its big deal. I read somewhere on FB that birth pain is like havin some 20 fractures at the same time. Though most women dont feel the pain due to pain killers, the body is left alone to experience the trauma. It has to go through it to deliver the baby. And its not a mean feat.
And immediately it has to work hard on getting back to normal. Ha! Great expectations indeed! And the body also has to provide for the new life it created. It has to store pounds of fat so it can continue to provide nourishment for the little being it created so painstakingly and carefully. The perfect little baby, not a blemish, ten little fingers and toes, all organs in place, everything working as expected, smooth buttery skin, everything perfect as God intended it to be. BSK has put on more than 10lbs, and all of it was provided for by this body, well the initial lbs were also from the same body, what a miracle this female body is!
Everytime I get restless about the stubborn needle on the weight scale, I try to remind myself to appreciate what my body has done and to not curse it for not letting go the pounds. The body knows it still has work left to do to care for BSK, to keep her hale and healthy. Till then I just have to continue working out and focus on toning and getting stronger, while being happy about the change that has already happened. Hope the brain understands!
I volunteered at a Women's Conference at work and the women didnt believe I had a baby 5 months back. And I take that as a compliment. This thing called waist, I can see it on me finally! Its 26th already, 4 more days to go for October to end. I have lost all of 2lbs this month. I dont think I can lose more in the next four days with MIL making Deepavali sweets at home and having attended not one not two but three parties at work. I am already slipping on my monthly deliverable.
Until then, this post is a reminder to myself. This body is a temple. It has done an amazing thing and it is still doing it. It has accomplished a huge deliverable :--P and it needs a break, some rest, to recuperate.
I will dress for the body I am in, instead of obsessing about the thin self hiding underneath all the flab. I will continue to workout, continue to eat healthy and not look for the cheap thrill in seeing the scale move down.
That being said, wish all you gentle, kind readers a very very Happy Deepavali! Have a blast! :--) |
posted by SK @ 5:51 PM  |
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hahah, cute post SK! Often enough I ponder why would I be so obsessed with how I look, when there are times I do the worst possible act! but the obesession has not stopped and so has the dream of looking fully fit! LOL. Cant even imagine getting pregnant and then losing it all - :O you're awesome.
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How was BSK's "thalai" deepavali? ;-)
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Ha! It is Ayn Rand time for us new moms. Our bodies ..our shrines. But functional temples they are - so we say we are lucky and move on.
Happy Diwali. Hope lil BSK had a gurgly Diwali....
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Porkodi,
I owe you an email, will mail soon. :-)
Bah, losing weight sucks in itself, after baby, its just horrible. :--( Be your thinnest before getting into it ;--)
BSK's Deepavali was awesome, she was dressed in pattu pavadai chattai and gave sweets to neighbours ;--)
Saumya, how else can we come to peace with the way we look :--( Hope you had a great diwali! :--)
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hahah, cute post SK! Often enough I ponder why would I be so obsessed with how I look, when there are times I do the worst possible act! but the obesession has not stopped and so has the dream of looking fully fit! LOL. Cant even imagine getting pregnant and then losing it all - :O you're awesome.