| I want to be thankful and grateful for everything inspite of dark things waiting to happen. I have forgotten how to be happy. I am not able to be 100% happy. I want to cringe in the crevices, hide until everything becomes alright and the sun shines bright enough to come out and bask in it. But is that what a happy person would do? Where has the confident, content person in me gone? Where is the person that has learnt so painstakingly to look at the bright side? Where is the person who always tries to make a cool lemonade when life gives you lemons? Why can't I focus on the job at hand as that is the only thing I can do?
Things that made me happy today -
- At VP review, I am nervous because I am new and everyone else knows one another. People have flown in from other sites, we put faces to our voices. I am nervous. I am nervous when I don't get everything and when I know people around me know more than me. I introduce myself to the person next to me who is in his 50s I am sure. I tell him what I do and he says ' wow that's my dream job'. ;--)) gotta make me happy
- JSK and I went to the post office at 8:30 where DH had been camping out since 6:30 to renew dotters passport. We had come the week before that 8:45 and found out the tokens for the day are given out first thing and the tokens were done! It is hard to find a day that works for both of us. Today we were 5th in line. DH prepared all the documents and I just had to be present. They needed two checks to be written. DH had brought his checkbook and realized .. It had only one check leaf! Do we have to come back a third time? The otherwsie strict 'don't bother me with silly questions have the correct form or leave the line' lady was nice to let us use debit card instead of the second check. Thankful some niceness is left in the govt employees!
- I see Instagram pictures of someone in Japan. I will be transiting through Japan this week. I hear so many great things about Japan, I cannot wait to see it in person even if it is only the airport. ;--) Excited to visit customers this time in a different capacity, I may have to handle some of them on my own without the presence of veterans. Exciting and nerve wrecking. I have to have to get Pineapple cake from Taiwan. Slurp! It is not too sweet but just sweet enough to make you want for more. Chia Te pineapple cakes are not available anywhere except Taiwan. Yum yum.
- Kitchen was painted today. The realtor suggested having accent walls in rooms. I really like the blue in our living room, it makes the house look very nice. The realtor picked all the colors. Although the smell of the paint and all the work makes me gag leaving me with no desire to eat, I cannot wait for some cleaning up to be done before house will be cute and ready, for someone else to live. I think leaving this house is adding to the sadness. But.. This is about happiness so.. Here is the chandelier that made me happy this morning. Sorry the picture is skewed not perfect. I will miss this house, with lot of memories. We grew up in this house from 2 irresponsible people to a little bit responsible parents of a totally irresponsible child.
- we don't know where we are going next. But I am sure things will fall in place. I hope and pray everything works out well in the end. No matter what happens, if I lose my job, I can only pray to God to give me the strength to handle whatever he puts my way. I mean there is no point cribbing and crying over it. Everytime God has put me through hard times he has always helped me come through it, as a much stronger, more sensible person with an unforgettable lesson learnt that I get to use throughout my life. So bring it on life! I am ready, as ready as I can be!
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